reality

I don't even know where to start. I have a hard time realizing it is October and my sweet 8lb 9.5oz, 21 inch long baby girl is about to be one. That now about 17 lb, 30 inch long baby girl is growing up so fast. I won't get all sappy on you (tonight.) That's for a blog in the near future, I am sure.

What I want to share today is the incredible abundance of happiness and joy I am filled with. After spending the evening alone with my RQ and giggling, playing, watching her explore, play with toys, climb toys... I just sat there almost in tears after I put her to bed realizing just how happy I am. A true happiness. Something I am unable to describe.

 Everyone told me "just you wait..." or "you will never sleep again..." Well. I hate to tell "them" but they were wrong. And even if Riley Quinn didn't like sleep as much as she does and always has, I wouldn't care. I have this little life. This little mini-me. This sweet child of God who counts of me for every step of her tiny little life. What could ever be better than that? Not sleep. Not being a size 0 or 2. Not having clean hair and getting dressed every day. Nothing could be better than the smile on that sweet baby girls face, knowing how much she depends on me. Nothing is better than that kiss she gives me when she wakes up each morning and grabs onto me.

Truly, nothing in this world matters more to me than this little girl. I never knew a love like this and I never knew just how much my mom must love me until I felt it myself. No one is perfect. But in my eyes, this little girl is SO perfect. She truly is always happy. My father in law even said last weekend, "most people exaggerate when they say their babies are always happy, but yours really is..." Someone else asked me (after spending the weekend with us) if RQ ever cried. Wow, have we been blessed. I know... just I wait until she is a teenager, right? Well guess what... I'm going into it with a positive attitude and praying that God continues to bless this sweet girl with her innocence and happiness.

Everyone has their issues. Everyone has struggles. It's life. I have them too. You have to be positive and look at all the things you are thankful for. I am so blessed at how things in my life have fallen into place. I never imagined this would be where I am at 27 years old. I have an incredible husband who works so hard. I never hear him complain about the long hours or the late hours or the busy days. He works so hard to allow me to be home (most of the time) with my sweet girl. I never imagined my dream job of working with kids but still being able to stay home with my daughter would fall right into place as it did. I am able to work 14 hours a week and teach first graders like I love and still spend the majority of my time with Riley. I am so thankful for this opportunity I have been given. I am so thankful that she is able to stay with her daddy or grandparents while I am away.

I am so thankful for my family. My in laws.  My friends. Without all of them, life wouldn't be the same. Riley is so blessed to have so many people love her the way they do. I could go on and on about our happiness, but I will stop here. In fact, I will probably go stand in her room and stare at that beautiful, sleeping, red headed little baby girl. The one who is growing up so quickly, right in front of my eyes.

I will leave you with this:

"Reality is the mirror of your thoughts. Choose well what you put in front of the mirror."  -Remez Sasson



~let go laughing